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Everything is a blur...
The feeling of empowerment, accompanied by helplessness.


If one is lost, even darkness would provide a sense of comfort to the brave
However, being afraid with the clearest sense of direction would only drive one into insanity

Everything is a blur...
yet I'm still so sure.

I am awake, yet another day where my thoughts are unable to find me...

The mind empty, feeling uneasy at the inability to express how to feel.

Remember, when we used to wonder about the afterlife, and you'd say there was nothing but darkness?

This time, may you see the sights we dreamed at the dinner table; beautiful cities with wondrous skies.

...

Here it goes again, the mind fails as every moment slips its grasp.

Then it remembers the importance of your existence...

The endless cycle; fighting to remember, trying not to remember.

Rest well in the peace we have dreamed of,

Nos da.

sundial dreams

The future is always there, and our perception of it's proximity is variable.
To me, the future is so close - yet so far away! The studies I'll have to pursue to achieve the dream has yet to come, yet the fact that I'll have to attempt the studies is so close!
How do you define the future - the process or the achievement?

Anyway, it has almost been a year now - and things have changed. For example, I am fond of pasta - even more so than before. Months of seeking has rewarded me with an official welcoming to the work force - the adult life. Opportunities have risen, and sure enough, risks have been taken. Regrets are far from my thoughts, even though doubts were present at the time.

You see, I have learnt not to be too caught up in the moment - being a person who prefers not to look silly, especially to the harshest critic (myself), many moments have taught me that everything pieces together. Sometimes soon, it may also be later than usual. For this very reason, my faith in God was restored. Many of us question the crisis we face and lose faith in God - but once averted, we gain trust in God during great times. What we fail to do is to thank him for putting us through the crisis, for without it, we would not recover as a stronger, better individual.

So why not just live out the vicious cycle? Well, here comes the beauty of companionship. Would you rather live through hardship alone, or with someone whom you know will be there, listen and watch over you always? I have learnt to surround myself with those who love me :) Even though it may not be plenty, it provides more than sufficient to me. So, other than your loved ones, remember that God is always with you :D I think of him as a friend, where the bottom line is... I wouldn't blame him if anything terrible happened - Or try to. Hey, my art of discipleship has been perfected, I'm as flawed as every other believer.

Ramblings aside, life has been well - no longer caught up in unnecessary nonsense, freed from all forms of insecurity. Dwelling in a more personal topic, where none would really take interest, I would just like to let my dear blog know that I'm still very much in love. It really is an incredible feeling, and my mind still fails to grasp its true concept. However, love is what I choose to define it as - it's the happiness I share with him.

Travelling adventures in 2 weeks! So exciting

Anyway, that's enough from me
Take care,
J
xx

:)

The sky isn't blue they say.
We all are, to an extent, uncertain for most things.
However, I'd like to believe some are genuinely true.
I'm so in love with you.

Today I was reminded the pain of a heartache.

Though the hours are early, and dawn has yet to come... the thought which shook me, I have now accepted. To know that my long ally is no more, and what is new found has provided the warmth spoken by many.

Bored

Hi, It has been awhile since I last blogged. However, a friend of mine has been encouraging me to do so.

So here I am, blogging. What's up in my life? Many things, significant now but perhaps insignificant later.
The thing with this question is, what may seem exciting to a stranger is in fact only a cycle.
Sun rise, sun set.
The continual battle in my mind regarding many things.

That is all for now.

Never forget who you are, where you came from and the reason you made the decisions in your life. If ever you feel as if you are ahead of yourself, take one step back. It doesn't matter, it doesn't hurt. As long as you're capable of taking the step forward again...